ハッピー・エンディング / MIKA

Love this song. The lyrics are simply touché.

Dedicated this song to someone, eh, I mean... to myself.

Misi Kamikaze

Pn. Ellyna merupakan orang kuat di fakulti art & design. Beliau terkenal dengan sifat beliau yang sentiasa cold terhadap pelajar-pelajarnya. Kebetulan pula semester kali nih, beliau mengajar aku subject Reproduction of Graphic Design (Repeat).

Nak dijadikan cerita, aku ponteng kelas pertama die. Alasan aku ponteng sebab confuse, ada orang kata ada kelas, ada yang kata takde kelas. Aku pun blur. Dan disebabkan aku sebagai pelajar yang sangat malas bangun pagi, mengambil keputusan untuk hiraukan kelas dan sambung tidur.

Tup.. Tap.. Tup.. Tap.. Seminggu pun berlalu. Hari ni, aku rajin bangun pagi sebab sekarang bulan Ramadhan. Syaitan semua kene kurung. Mungkin sebab tu aku ringan je bangun pagi hari nih. Pukul 8.00 pagi aku dapat message, tertulis "Pn. Ellyna ada kasi assignment minggu lepas." Kelas Pn. Ellyna pulak start pukul 9.00 pagi.

fuck !

Niat nak ponteng kelas tibe-tibe muncul kembali. Kali ni ada banyak sebab kenapa aku terasa nak ponteng. Antaranya, dengar cerita ada yang tak siap assignment, dibaling pen marker dan dihalau keluar dari kelas. Ada yang disuruh bukak seluar dan disebat dengan batang buloh pada bontot. Yang paling merepek aku dengar, ada yang sampai kene berlari kat padang 10 pusingan tanpa memakai apa-apa pakaian... sambil dikejar harimau yang beliau bela.

Selalunya aku akan tipu diri aku sendiri dengan berkata - "standard la kene marah." Tapi kali ini tidak. Ini bukan lecturer part-time yang aku boleh bergurau-senda. Ini bukan lecturer alim yang aku boleh hirau kan. Ini adalah Pn. Ellyna, lecturer terpaling digeruni di alam universe. Pagi ni merupakan hari bersejarah buat aku. Aku tak pernah lagi dipaksa berlari bogel di padang sambil di kejar harimau.

Aku perlu membuat decision dengan cepat. Adakah aku mahu teruskan niat untuk pergi ke kelas dan terima hukuman - yang kemungkinan boleh membuat aku merana. Atau aku boleh sambung tidur dan buat-buat macam takde bende yang berlaku... I pick the first one. Aku pun cepat-cepat bersiap. Aku taknak lambat masuk ke kelas, takut hukuman akan jadi lebih berat daripada yang sepatutnya.

Setiap langkah aku ke UNiSEL terasa berat.

Terasa seperti ada seseorang menarik aku ke belakang.

Telinga aku pula seperti mendengar "Apiz, balik lah ! Sambung tidur !"

"Tilam engkau rindu engkau nih !"

Semuanya masih belum terlewat. Aku masih lagi boleh berpatah balik. Patah balik ke bilik tidur aku. Tapi... To be a successful man, you first must defeat your inner fear (bak kata pepatah Donald Trump)

"I must defeat my inner fear ! I must defeat Pn. Ellyna !" Aku jerit pada diri aku tanpa hiraukan orang ramai di dalam bas yang kemudian memandang aku sambil membuat muka curious.

Tiba saja di Stesen Bas di hadapan UNiSEL, dengan sifat aku yang cool, aku pun selamber menurun dari bas tersebut. Ini umpama misi Kamikaze. Aku tahu aku akan di maki, di marah, di caci, di baling pen marker, dan di kejar harimau, tapi aku tetap pergi jugak. Family aku tentu bangga pada aku - sebab sanggup Kamikaze. Setapak demi setapak aku melangkah. Makin lama makin berat kaki ku untuk melangkah. Jantung pula bergoncang-goncang macam water-machine. Tangan pulak bergetar-getar, sampai tak leh nak pegang mouse.

TING ~!!!

Loceng lif berbunyi. Aku pun memasuk lif tersebut dan tekan butang tingkat 3. Destinasi aku semakin dekat. Aku dah boleh nampak pintu ke kelas tersebut. Aku tabah kan diri. Aku mengeluarkan handphone aku di poket kanan seluar. Aku menghantar message "I lurve yuu, I hop yuu wil mish me wen i am gone porever" kepada orang yang aku sayang.

This is it. Aku kini berdiri 5 meter depan pintu tersebut. Aku takut. Hari nih aku betul-betul takut. Aku tak mintak pun nih semua. Aku masuk UNiSEL bukan untuk kene marah. Aku masuk UNiSEL sebab nak carik awek !

Krekkk ~ Bunyi pintu terbukak.

Member aku keluar sambil berkate, "Yo Apiz, hari nih kelas cancel."

p/s: harap-harap Pn. Ellyna tak baca blog nih hehe :-)

Fairy Tales

Once upon a time,

In a neighborhood far far away. Lived a girl name Yana. Yana is a very wealthy girl. She can have all the things that she want. She is blessed with angelic face, hair and voice. Loved by all the people in her neighborhood... except only one people. Her boyfriend, named Hector. Hector is rich, superbly handsome, and yet very unkind. He never love Yana the same way that Yana love him. Yana aware of this. But Yana is so kind (or naive) she actually think everyone need some time before falling in love. Yana will do anything to get Hector's love.

In the same neighborhood, lived a loveless boy. His name is Prince. Prince never felt being in love before. Therefore he had a hard time dealing with any girl in his neighborhood. One day, Prince decide to take a walk at the neighborhood park. There, he meet one girl. That girl is Yana. Yana is looking very sad, and seems to look at her cell phone every now and then. A tears drop from Yana's eye touched Prince's heart.

So, Prince walk up to her and say,

"What make you crying?"

But Yana does not respond and keep looking at her cell phone. Prince looked confuse, and then he decide to walk away. While he walking away, he said,

"Sorry, I didn't know angels can cry..."

Suddenly, Yana stop crying and say,

"I'm not angel... I'm just a toy. A toy that can be cheated over and over again."

The Prince stop walking. He stood there for a second and look at Yana's eye. Yana looked very depressed. Normally, Prince would just walk away and pretend nothing ever happened. But this time, Prince was really touched by looking at Yana's angelic face. So, he decide he should stay there and talk with her until she cooled off.

From small conversation, turn into laughter. From laughter turn into hitting each other arm and so on. At that very moment, the Prince felt something that he never felt before - Love. It was fast, and the Prince never see it coming. But he know, Yana's heart is already made for somebody else. So, he kept it as a secret. As for Yana... Yes, her heart felt the same too. But her mind still think that one day Hector will stop cheating on her and love her so that they can start living together as a happy couple.

The day is getting dark.

It's been 3 hours since their first met.

They both should get home now. After exchanging phone numbers, they return to their home.

That night, the Prince cannot stop thinking of her. He cannot get Yana out of his mind. It was the first time that the Prince felt like this and it was very uncomfortable. "She is just some naive girl with a pretty face. There is plenty more girl better than her. Why her?" Nevertheless what the Prince said to himself, the Prince cannot wait to see her again.

At Yana's places. Tonight is not the same like every night before. Tonight, she confused whether to believe what her mind think or what her heart felt. "What to do? Should I continue to love someone who doesn't love me? I know forcing people to love me is bad. But... I really don't know what is the right thing to do right now." Before she goes to sleep, she normally text Hector a goodnight wish. But tonight, instead of Hector, she text the Prince.

It's been 12 hours since their first met.

Today, they will meet again. At the same spot - the park. It was a lovely evening. They take a walk around the park, enjoying the view, chit chatting, laugh and make love all at the same time. It is possible for two complete stranger to fall in love less than 24 hours. For Prince, it's like fairy tales come true. He never thought he could be with someone so beauty yet understand him. As for Yana, this is probably the right decision she ever made. Nothing in this world can describe how happy they are right now.

And then, there's Karma. Nothing is this world can escape Karma. Nothing in this world can stay happy forever.

At that very evening, 2 rapist came out of nowhere. They knock the Prince head from behind and take Yana away. The Prince did not turn unconscious, instead he chase the 2 rapist. He could never forgive himself if anything happened to Yana. One of the rapist turn to Prince and try to stab him using a knife. The Prince got stabbed at the stomach. It was painful. But not as painful as losing Yana. The Prince pull out the knife at his stomach, and punch the rapist that stab him in the face.

Yana was not far from the Prince. She was across the road. She saw the Prince got stabbed. She scream as loud as she can. The Prince could bear the wound anymore. He fall down to the ground as the blood pouring out of his body. This time, the Prince was knocked unconscious. She could not believe her eyes. She struggle as hard as she can to escape from the rapist grab. It was tough, but she managed to escape it. Without thinking, she immediately ran to the Prince at the other side of the road. Little did she know, there was a truck moving at a high speed toward her...

There he was, looking at the naive girl that he fallen in love to. Seeing his first love getting hit by a truck is obviously never crossed his mind.

There he was, thinking how the naive girl gave him so much hope and dream. Now that she was gone. All the hope and dream of her will turned into dust.

It's been 15 hours since their first met.

Loveless. Now that the Prince is all alone again. That 15 hours is probably the best part of his life.

... All he has to remember her is only her phone number.

"Fairy tales do come true. But not every Fairy tale ended with happy ending."

APZ